I don't even know where to start.

I keep fighting with my parents. I want to get out of this house so bad.

My dad used to be one of my best friends. I could rely on him for a hug whenever I was down. We spent a lot of time together. Then everything came out. I tried explaining to him that I always feel sad. I told him about how I really struggle with wanting to hurt myself. He didn't understand. Instead of the loving, sympathetic friend that I needed, he was frustrated with me. I was punished for having low self-esteem. I think he's ashamed of me. I try so hard to do well in school and extra curricular activities, but nothing impresses him. I'm not the only one who has unrealistic expectations for myself.