Well, we all can't be good at everything. Unless you're me ;)

Alright everyone, I am going to confess my greatest weakness.........

I am horrible at letting go of the past.

No surprise there.

I like the rain, but only when it's warm...like not tonight.

Why is it that new love is cuter than old love? As an outsider looking in, the awkward stage always makes people "oooh" and "awww." Once people are a thing, the cutesy effect seems to wear off.

It's the moment before an applause. There's anticipation. You know the thunder is coming, but the seconds seems to last for ages. No one wants to clap first. Then it happens. The culmination of work and stress is relieved by a simple secondary reinforcer; the smacking of hands together. In many ways, the precursor is better than the actual event.

Does this make sense? No. Is love supposed to make sense? I wish.

I'm happy. He's great. But is this it? I'm fine with always having to work at it, but why can't love sustain itself? Love should be easy. It should feel new.

In other news, my orchestra concert was wonderfully average. No one came, as usual. Mr. First Chair had first chair, as usual. I didn't practice, as usual. My hair looked unusually horrible, which is a first. Ohh, and I'm signed up for Girls' State this summer! The end.

one day I'm gonna do something rebellious like not have a title for my blog post.

Last year my yearbook was dedicated to 6 word stories. Here are some of mine:

I'm desperate for the summer time.

We feed Millie's turtle gold fish.

My uncle says that it's cannibalistic.

Only I am holding myself back.

Daisies are a girl's best friend.

I miss my old pet dog.

A smoothie sounds nice right now.

I'm procrastinating math homework right now.

My sleep is never long enough.

I am dying for a friend.

I stopped liking violin years ago.

I'm thinking about going to BYU.

while we're on the topic of debate...

My school took first at regions (I placed 1st in LD), which I'm pretty sure I've already announced.

THEN I PLACED 3RD AT STATE!!!

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That was so cool :)!

(PS- State was held at East High, which was where High-School-Musical was filmed...pictures to come!)

And then today, I decided to randomly sign up for a TSA (technology student association) competition in a debate event. My partner and I placed first, and now I'm qualified to go to nationals in Dallas this summer!! It's awesome!

anyway, Mama's bugging me to get off ;)

and I have some math :(

Goodnight friends who might or might not actually read this.

So, my sister's getting married soon.

Let's just say that April will be a busy month for the fam. I have the school play as well as the junior high debate tournament, Darci is graduating from college, and Ninny's getting hitched. Millie...well, she'll just be there. :)

more than you wanted to know

I keep a scrabble board in the back of my car. I didn't used to. There have been times when I have wished I had it. Now I do, just in case.

When I started my blog, I made every title a short word or phrase so that it would fit on one line, and not make the archive list look weird. But I'm branching out now. I'd say that it's a break through for me, however I've also decided to begin "justifying" the paragraphs so that they look even and nice...nothing changes, I'm still OCD.

MARCH!!

I am so glad to be putting February behind me.

Realistically, it's the shortest month of the year. So why does it feel like it drags on forever?!

So here's the low down on me:

It's March, which means that the sun is starting to shine. Sure, it's only 50 degrees outside, which isn't quite paradise. But it's sunny. It's been a lot easier for me to stay positive! I'm feeling like I'll be over this bout of seasonal depression soon!

It's that time of the year again where I pay deposits for AP tests. Because I'm taking 6, and my parents pay for it (they are so good to me!), my mama's saying that I better get 5s on all of them. I also have to get a full-ride to BYU to make up for it! ;) The second week in May, my fam's going to DC. Because I have testing, she said that instead of buying me a plane ticket, she's going to buy tests! Joy....:)

My friend Louise is doing great! She's a widow in my neighborhood who my family's been connected with for a couple years. She had a stroke a couple months ago and lost her ability to speak. I've been visiting her a lot and it's been really great! I always feel good when I'm there. She can't talk, but she can sing. So we usually sing church hymns together :) I love her!

LHS DEBATE TOOK REGIONS! Yes we did :) I placed first in Lincoln-Douglas! It was great! I was also very pleased to beat our rivals, WLHS, for the second year in a row.

I took the ACT for the 3rd time! The math was harder than it's ever been before :P I used to have a 35 in math (33 composite), but I'm worried that it will go down now. Luckily, the other sections seemed to be easier and I felt really confident about them. Those will hopefully compensate for it. I'm aiming for a 34!

Well, that's about all that's been on my mind! Between play-practice and calculus homework, I'm managing to survive. I've been feeling a lot better and I'm hoping to keep it up! :)