Let's just say that April will be a busy month for the fam. I have the school play as well as the junior high debate tournament, Darci is graduating from college, and Ninny's getting hitched. Millie...well, she'll just be there. :)
March 15, 2011
more than you wanted to know
I keep a scrabble board in the back of my car. I didn't used to. There have been times when I have wished I had it. Now I do, just in case.
When I started my blog, I made every title a short word or phrase so that it would fit on one line, and not make the archive list look weird. But I'm branching out now. I'd say that it's a break through for me, however I've also decided to begin "justifying" the paragraphs so that they look even and nice...nothing changes, I'm still OCD.
When I started my blog, I made every title a short word or phrase so that it would fit on one line, and not make the archive list look weird. But I'm branching out now. I'd say that it's a break through for me, however I've also decided to begin "justifying" the paragraphs so that they look even and nice...nothing changes, I'm still OCD.
March 3, 2011
MARCH!!
I am so glad to be putting February behind me.
Realistically, it's the shortest month of the year. So why does it feel like it drags on forever?!
So here's the low down on me:
It's March, which means that the sun is starting to shine. Sure, it's only 50 degrees outside, which isn't quite paradise. But it's sunny. It's been a lot easier for me to stay positive! I'm feeling like I'll be over this bout of seasonal depression soon!
It's that time of the year again where I pay deposits for AP tests. Because I'm taking 6, and my parents pay for it (they are so good to me!), my mama's saying that I better get 5s on all of them. I also have to get a full-ride to BYU to make up for it! ;) The second week in May, my fam's going to DC. Because I have testing, she said that instead of buying me a plane ticket, she's going to buy tests! Joy....:)
My friend Louise is doing great! She's a widow in my neighborhood who my family's been connected with for a couple years. She had a stroke a couple months ago and lost her ability to speak. I've been visiting her a lot and it's been really great! I always feel good when I'm there. She can't talk, but she can sing. So we usually sing church hymns together :) I love her!
LHS DEBATE TOOK REGIONS! Yes we did :) I placed first in Lincoln-Douglas! It was great! I was also very pleased to beat our rivals, WLHS, for the second year in a row.
I took the ACT for the 3rd time! The math was harder than it's ever been before :P I used to have a 35 in math (33 composite), but I'm worried that it will go down now. Luckily, the other sections seemed to be easier and I felt really confident about them. Those will hopefully compensate for it. I'm aiming for a 34!
Well, that's about all that's been on my mind! Between play-practice and calculus homework, I'm managing to survive. I've been feeling a lot better and I'm hoping to keep it up! :)
Realistically, it's the shortest month of the year. So why does it feel like it drags on forever?!
So here's the low down on me:
It's March, which means that the sun is starting to shine. Sure, it's only 50 degrees outside, which isn't quite paradise. But it's sunny. It's been a lot easier for me to stay positive! I'm feeling like I'll be over this bout of seasonal depression soon!
It's that time of the year again where I pay deposits for AP tests. Because I'm taking 6, and my parents pay for it (they are so good to me!), my mama's saying that I better get 5s on all of them. I also have to get a full-ride to BYU to make up for it! ;) The second week in May, my fam's going to DC. Because I have testing, she said that instead of buying me a plane ticket, she's going to buy tests! Joy....:)
My friend Louise is doing great! She's a widow in my neighborhood who my family's been connected with for a couple years. She had a stroke a couple months ago and lost her ability to speak. I've been visiting her a lot and it's been really great! I always feel good when I'm there. She can't talk, but she can sing. So we usually sing church hymns together :) I love her!
LHS DEBATE TOOK REGIONS! Yes we did :) I placed first in Lincoln-Douglas! It was great! I was also very pleased to beat our rivals, WLHS, for the second year in a row.
I took the ACT for the 3rd time! The math was harder than it's ever been before :P I used to have a 35 in math (33 composite), but I'm worried that it will go down now. Luckily, the other sections seemed to be easier and I felt really confident about them. Those will hopefully compensate for it. I'm aiming for a 34!
Well, that's about all that's been on my mind! Between play-practice and calculus homework, I'm managing to survive. I've been feeling a lot better and I'm hoping to keep it up! :)
February 23, 2011
oh my
It bothers me when girls talk about how they have "haters." Really? Or when they say, "I hate drama!" Because oftentimes, they're the ones who start it. They flirt with all the boys, and scream their personal lives to the world. They can't keep to themselves and their self-importance is obnoxious. They purposefully do bad in school so that they won't seem too nerdy. They pretend to be helpless so that a guy will come and "save" them. Embarrassingly enough, a lot of them truly are helpless. The worst part? Most guys find it attractive. Gross.
February 22, 2011
just getting by...
Hi, my name is uncommonly common and I have long hair.
I'm also behind in every class.
Oh, and I don't have friends anymore. This is fun...
I relapsed into depression last fall and It's still not gone yet. I hate feeling like I'm not myself. It's a disease that controls my life. I become tangled and lost. It chokes me and dictates every action. I no longer have reign over my own body. My weight has been unsteady and my emotions, even worse. The longer it lasts, the more difficult it becomes to cover it. People keep asking me what's wrong. They think it's okay to joke or tease with me. I just need someone to put their arm around me, and tell me that everything's going to be okay.
I alienate myself from the people I care about. I struggle with detachment. I would rather never love at all than love and lose it. I hate being with a group that means something to me, because I worry about it not lasting. So I leave; I cut myself out of the picture before anyone else can. They wonder why I'm no longer there at lunch. It's because I'm afraid. They don't understand, so they let me go. It's not their fault, it's mine. I just can't make myself change.
I'm also behind in every class.
Oh, and I don't have friends anymore. This is fun...
I relapsed into depression last fall and It's still not gone yet. I hate feeling like I'm not myself. It's a disease that controls my life. I become tangled and lost. It chokes me and dictates every action. I no longer have reign over my own body. My weight has been unsteady and my emotions, even worse. The longer it lasts, the more difficult it becomes to cover it. People keep asking me what's wrong. They think it's okay to joke or tease with me. I just need someone to put their arm around me, and tell me that everything's going to be okay.
I alienate myself from the people I care about. I struggle with detachment. I would rather never love at all than love and lose it. I hate being with a group that means something to me, because I worry about it not lasting. So I leave; I cut myself out of the picture before anyone else can. They wonder why I'm no longer there at lunch. It's because I'm afraid. They don't understand, so they let me go. It's not their fault, it's mine. I just can't make myself change.
February 9, 2011
PMS monster
Yes. That's what I've been. All I want to do when I get home from school is sleep. And then at night, I just want to sleep more. I have horrid cramps, and random cravings. Not to mention, I've done some VERY rash things...Like quit hula for 2 months.
For the past 3 years, we've been discussing competition. December was the first time we actually got serious about it. We had the application ready to turn in and everything. Then, my teacher got worried that we weren't committed enough. All the hula-moms decided to back out. They didn't want to pay the money and said we weren't experienced enough to go to competition.
I don't mean to be sarcastically and horribly blunt, but how are we supposed to get experience if we never compete? Another girl in the halau, who went to competition a few years before I joined, said that if we went we'd just be disappointed. I honestly don't feel like I'd be disappointed, considering that I practice every day and I live and breathe hula. I'm really disciplined. My sister and I are the only girls in the wahine class that are at every single practice. We kahea and bend our knees like perfect little hula girls. We are at every performance. I truly feel we would do well.
But regardless, our halau turned down competition to Reno this summer. Instead, we're doing three local jazz competitions. All three happen to be during the school year, on days that I can't make. Now, I understand that it would be selfish of me to say that we should just drop those and go to the competition that I can make it to. But now the rest of the class is preparing for competitions that I can't go to anyway. They're doing dances that I've already learned. The other girls don't know them because they're not there all the time. So now the lessons are pointless for me.
Besides that, I've not always seen eye-to-eye with the girls and hula-moms in my class. I decided to take march and april off. With the play, I'm going to be really busy anyway. I think this will cut down on some stress and give me time to consider whether or not I want to continue with this halau.
Until then, redvines would be very much appreciated.
For the past 3 years, we've been discussing competition. December was the first time we actually got serious about it. We had the application ready to turn in and everything. Then, my teacher got worried that we weren't committed enough. All the hula-moms decided to back out. They didn't want to pay the money and said we weren't experienced enough to go to competition.
I don't mean to be sarcastically and horribly blunt, but how are we supposed to get experience if we never compete? Another girl in the halau, who went to competition a few years before I joined, said that if we went we'd just be disappointed. I honestly don't feel like I'd be disappointed, considering that I practice every day and I live and breathe hula. I'm really disciplined. My sister and I are the only girls in the wahine class that are at every single practice. We kahea and bend our knees like perfect little hula girls. We are at every performance. I truly feel we would do well.
But regardless, our halau turned down competition to Reno this summer. Instead, we're doing three local jazz competitions. All three happen to be during the school year, on days that I can't make. Now, I understand that it would be selfish of me to say that we should just drop those and go to the competition that I can make it to. But now the rest of the class is preparing for competitions that I can't go to anyway. They're doing dances that I've already learned. The other girls don't know them because they're not there all the time. So now the lessons are pointless for me.
Besides that, I've not always seen eye-to-eye with the girls and hula-moms in my class. I decided to take march and april off. With the play, I'm going to be really busy anyway. I think this will cut down on some stress and give me time to consider whether or not I want to continue with this halau.
Until then, redvines would be very much appreciated.
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